Filed under: thoughts
They’re not gone.
You’d think the implant would fix them.
The software could just, correct them
or remove them
but they changed.
Every now and then
s-s-s-static linessssss
like an old TV
exactly like
v¡de0 art if facts.
your eyes send signals
that your brain can’t figure out
Filed under: thoughts | Tags: awkward 4 lyfe, cute girls, girls, the awkward life and times in this head
“Hey, I was wondering if you…well I wanted to…can I start over?
I’ve been meaning to but was just too shy to…hmm…
Are you free next Saturday? Cause there’s this…place…no wait, that’s dumb…
Do you eat food? Could…uh…wait…of course you do? God, this is dumb.
Please shoot me so I don’t have to die of embarrassment.”
“I AM SO NERVOUS
AM I BEING LOUD I CAN’T TELL
DO YOU WANT TO GO OUT WITH ME
I HAD A FEW DRINKS
I DON’T KNOW HOW TO SHUT UP
I AM AN ADULT I SWEAR
DID I MENTION I WAS NERVOUS”
“I’ve been meaning to ask you out but I didn’t know when and where
and I didn’t want to be too forward but you have a really pretty smile
and make me smile this goofy, toothy grin every time I see it,
do you want to hang out sometime?”
“…I…um…ok…see you later…
…
…
…I didn’t get to say anything…”
Filed under: thoughts
Ok, so…there’s no way I’m gonna use these all. But I have them! I figured I’d share them.
Filed under: thoughts
I felt a longer update to life was necessary. Not sure who’s still listening/reading/lurking.
the best city in the world
Reflecting on the train over the past Thanksgiving weekend, I remember visiting New York exactly a year before that for the very first time and thinking: “who the hell could live in this place?”. Me, apparently. So very, very me. I’m still entirely not sure how that happened. I blame my eternal fascination for the sheer urbanity of this here collection of boroughs. I think my biggest fear before moving here was drowning in the sea of people and feeling really alone. In fact, other than my sister, I could only really say I would have trusted one person I knew here. That actually brings me to my next header tag…
chipbros
I had met Anamanaguchi at PAX09, they seemed like pretty chill bros, I even applied to be their bro intern at some point. ANYWAY, my first month here, I went to a monthly show called Pulsewave expecting to hear some pretty cool music. I’ve since gone to more chip shows than I can remember and met some of the coolest, friendliest people ever. For a while there, I was going to a show or two every weekend. I like this community, there are some incredibly genuine, incredibly talented people being awesome. And I took goob’s advice about being awesome to heart.
working like it’s not work
I remember being worried and panicked. Even the first month or so at Etsy was kind of trial-by-fire for me. “What am I doing? Do I even know how?” would jump into my head. But then I got into the swing of things, hell, I even gave a talk at my alma mater (with some help, of course). I’ve since been staying at work til 9 or 10 not because I have to, but because I really want to. I’m very excited about what we’re doing and I love the people I’m working with. Is it still a job if you’re enjoying the hell out of it? Either way, I’ve caught my stride. I was crawling out of my seat today because I couldn’t deploy code, so I started mucking about with our IRC bots. I think I just figured out how to make one talk in color, actually, I’m ending this post on that note just so I can tinker around with that.
one more thing
If you’re a friend I haven’t talked to in a while and you’re reading this. Please say hi somehow. I get awful at keeping in touch when I’m excited about things. Most of my contact info hasn’t changed, although you shouldn’t email me at my Andrew account. I actually threw together this page that kind of collects most of the social networks I’m on.
